Arms shaking. Heart thumping. It was time. It sounds dramatic but this was something I hadn’t prepared myself for. It felt like I was about to have a panic attack. I had to double, no, triple check I was doing the right thing. 

I had over 100 people waiting outside my motorhome, Betty, at the Aintree Motorcycle Racing Club's meeting in June. I stepped out to what felt like a stadium of people. All cheering and clapping. 

I went numb...

I then stationed myself outside with my husband at one side and my best friend at the other. It was time. I gave my best friend a nod and turned around. She grabbed the scissors and cut my long plait off. I felt like I was going to melt down. 

Then it hit me. This relaxation and calm. It was an empowering moment when the clippers made their big performance. This was cool, this was what it was all about. Everyone that came to support me turned into a blur. It was just me.

On my own in that very moment. 

Once my hair was all gone it was very overwhelming. People were recording on their phones, taking pictures and cheering. I stood up and my husband gave me the biggest hug and lifted me into the air. At that point I broke down and started to cry. Happy tears though. My husband whispered in my ear; “This is the start of the rest of your life, I love you.”

I was surrounded by so much love and support. It was what I needed.   

Everyone complimented me on my new do. Saying I looked like Sinéad O’Connor. It felt so strange and different. I could certainly feel the wind on my ears. All those years of teasing my brothers saying they were 'getting their ears lowered’ when they had haircuts- karma hey! It’s taking a while to get used to. 

This was the new me. The me that I never thought I’d ever have to meet. People say it brings out my eyes, cheekbones and all round suits me. I’m still trying to get used to it...

Chloe xx

Life is full of beauty. Notice it. 

Notice the bumble bee, the small child and the smiling faces. Smell the rain and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential and fight for your dreams!